the story with vampires

so... sorry to all the (listed or non listed) readers for not publishing anything for a month... there was just nothing to say... or at least nothing worth putting it on here... however, i just encountered a blast from the past and was once more astouned about the variety of  people on this planet...

have to go back a bit so you understand what i'm on about...
about two years ago (i think) i was unhappy with my situation, just kinda sad... i have friends who love just as i love them, i had everything to be happy but still i wasn't... don't ask me to define it more precise, can't... however, there was one night... another sleepless one (unemployment has one good side.. no real reason to get up at the crack of dawn if you really don't want)... i was surfing around on facebook and browsing through games... until i found one called "reign of vampires"... clicked on it, chose my "clan" which was basically only chosing your stronger skills among them all... at some point during that getting-to-know-process i found a page with a blank part.. the top saying "write your own lore"... wtf?? now what's a lore again?? ok,  let's have a look at what the others wrote (little school flashback.. sorry, out of place) after a while there was this "ooh, that's what i'm supposed to do" moment... so i'm supposed to come up with a story how "my clan" began... ok, writing a couple of lines, maybe a paragraph... it's just midnight and i'm kinda sleepy, dk why.. didn't do nothing all day... but i wanna get this done now... should be a cool game, let's see...

what was meant to be 1 paragraph long max, ended up in that in me still writing 4h later, have a look if you want - http://freakybrain.blogspot.com/2011/05/vampire-story-from-ireland.html

at first it was on another page with a name debating the lines between fiction and reality on that topic... i read some stories, scouted around the page... until i saw that "publish your story" button... which was what i did and it got accepted and published... first proud moment... not done story but yet it was approved by somebody... quickly got a few comments and some other stuff... people asking me if that's real and all that... for the records, it's not...
i don't know what happened to the site but my story was moved... and here are the comments again... the first one and the last one are interesting to compare... 1. posted on june 14 "hey!! is this all made up??? please its really very important for me to knoe..please please fine me too..." - brilliant english but obviously a nutter... sorry mate, can't help ya... 4. posted august 4 "fake, it sounds like a mixture of trueblood and twilight" .. first, nobody said nothing about it being a autobiography and second, back then i hadn't heard of true blood yet... other things fueled my inspiration...

individual mindsets aside... there is the robert frost situation... fire and ice... or in this case fire or ice? i must confess, to be true to the poem, i hold with those who favor fire... but don't get frustrated my icy friends... i'm not for blind belief and completely ignoring evidence pointing in the other direction... i say a healthy balance is important... i was thought by my mother to use heart and brains to find my way and i've kept to it since...

so... is there really a secret world hiding in plain sight? i'm sure it doesn't look like depicted in "volterra" but i'm sure there is something... as "walter bishop" once said: "just because nobody documented talking lions and flying monkeys yet, doesn't mean they don't exist"...
some say the caught a glimpse of their world, some say you won't find them and if you do, you won't have the chance to talk of it... taking all the dangers and certain death in consideration, it would be intriguing to get some facts.. one hears many things about different species of vampires, how they feed, how they survive, how the became what they are... but what of it is true and what of it is product of insanity, blind following and romantic teeny fantasy??

i just wish there was more....

good night

i really dunno :)

well... here comes another one :) sorry to any reader that i haven't put down anything for all this time.. there was just nothing to say really.. everyday madness but that's about it...
but.. there is one new thing : ) met this really cute, sweet, lovely, completely insane, demanding american beauty :) i dunno what it is yet but it feels good... has been a while since i last felt like that but this time it really feels right... great chemistry and great fun... and her smile, oh my god... i can't even begin to describe how it feels.. it's one of those smile that make your heart stop and kick your legs away.. plus she is the first american i met with a real, genuine smile and not one of those fake ones... we'll see how it goes but it would be really nice for a change, so... y'all wish me luck :D

yet another end

so... just watched the final episode of the vampire diaries season 2.. very nice ending i must say :) finally everybody is let in plus there are some very interesting twists and turns...
in this season we saw them all, saw history with present intertwined.. flashbacks to the founders ball of mystic falls in 1864, we met catherine (or katerina petrova), we met some vampires from the tomb... most of them killed but catherines role developed really nicely over the episodes... so we learn that she was in love with an original (first vampire family) but betrayed him and fled england where they lived.. in the last few episodes "klaus" comes back and takes a key role in the whole thing... after damon getting bitten by a werewolf and dying we find out that the blood of klaus is the cure because he is a vampire born from a werewolf bloodline, therefore a hybrid... concluding the season we see stefan turning himself in to be some sorf of executioner to klaus and get back on human blood.. jeremy is shot by liz and brought back to life by bonnie which is warned that that action "will have consequences"... the rest is left open... in the last minute we see jeremy walking through the house when dead vicky and dead anna appear.......
all in all a very nice conclusion with some pretty nice promisses for season 3... can't wait... :)

just something

thank god that day is over.. it seems like now the end is approaching the endless human stupidity seems to have its goal set to bust all before records at and is really giving it to me... 20min here to explain why it's not possible to rent a van on a saturday afternoon in germany... because all the locations are closed... 10min to explain to a man who barely speaks german that he can't book a flight or rent a plane with *organ company* because we only rent out cars... another 10min to play around with some broker gathering prices but to stupid to put up a decent camouflage to cover it up... and the notorious mister know it all moking everything you like just for the fun of it... because he knows what life is about... acts like he got more knowledge stocked up than the library of alexandria.... but.. thank god, the 6th of my early shifts in a row has finally found its end and i'm off tomorrow...

evening at home... my spanish flat mate created some super delicous paella... "you can get some... as an early birthday gift so to speak"... i suddenly like him even more :D
another plus... haven't heard from that half rotten mummy visiting us yesterday... so there's still hope he won't move in... to put it in words of another wise man "fucks sake, we have to take control and decide who's moving in"... true that!!
watching mark zuckerbergs story with sergio... explaining some "difficult parts"... feels weird being the teaching part...
i was intending to go out for a pint but figured it might be best not to since next tue is much likely to be savage :D oh well.. there's camelot on.. might as well give it another shot... so my dear, better make that one count because last episode was shite... but still, not my main focus at this time... found another addiction.. :) stefan salvatore, damon salvatore, elena gilbert, jeremy gilber, jenna, catherine pierce, bonnie bennet, alarick salzman and many more... :) tvd.. love it :)
promisses to be a chilled out evening... haven't had one of those in a while... and sleep in tomorrow... haven't had one of those in a while either... so, on that topic it is almost time to say good night and sleep well... i dying to see what happens with the doppelgänger (yes, they actually use the german word in english) and klaus and the originals... and bonnie all juiced up with the power of 100 witches... question is: will they find a way to safe her or will she really kill herself by chanelling all that power to kill the oldest vampire of all... which, after all didn't turn out to be a "real" vampire but occupying alaricks body like a parasite... 4 episodes left... bring it on :)

good night and sleep tight...

really really grose encounter

this is going to be a shorter one because i really don't wanna think of it anymore...

so, quite on time actually, there's the buzzer at the door... out there is a guy easily in his 40's, dressed in a motorhead shirt (ok, kinda like it, but red... why red? grose), bit of a weird smell, but maybe somebody is burning something out there.. he goes "hey i'm greg" ... "hi... hows it going.. did you find it alright?" yeah, i know, kinda like an interview but wasn't it? ... ok, here we go then... living room, kitchen, get upstairs "this will be your room" ... "ok, looks good"... and then - god, i really don't wanna think about it - he turns around and tries to break out a smile... the seconds his lips split my gag reflex triggers and i can feel contractions in my stomach... holy fuckin shit... i know where the smell probably comes from... teeth dark brown, looking and smelling like my grandma's armpit... the rest not much better... i save sergio from this really really bad encounter... "there's another man living here.. spanier, name's sergio... best not disturb him, he's in an important meeting.. negotiate some buiness deal" ... "oh, ok".... .... ... "how much are the bills?" .. "50 deposit, around 70 a month all together" .. "ok" .... "anything i can show or tell you" .. "no, i'm ok" ... "brilliant... thanks for stopping by... c ya" ... "mmh".... close the door and shiver that my bones shake... what the fuck was this shit???? no fuckin way i'm gonna live with that man!!!!!

bottom line... he CAN'T move here... there's never been a bigger dismatch than this guy!!!!! please please don't let him make the decision to move in... hope i was hostile and unfriendly enough... :D sorry dude but no thanks......

the new one?

day over... tired, sitting here, watching tv, waiting for a possible new room mate to come "check out the place" as our supercool landlord *yawn* likes to put it... but let's start at the beginning....

well.. the day started much like the evening ended... slow.. another early shift ahead of me... god how i love these.. not.. guess getting of work at 3:45pm must have it's downside as well, and since i don't really live in the (almost) country side where i work, it's gonna take some time to get there.. ok, somewhere between 20min and 45min bus ride (the punctuality of public transportation in dublin is another topic... e really special one if you come from a country famous of its exact clocks and timing, amongst other things of course :) ) can be a pain in the ass but it also gives you time to slowly start waking up before the first coffee and the first call... but it unfortunately also means i have to get outta bed at all hours of the night to be there at 7am...

i got off topic.. sorry.. here i am one moment, slumbering and dreaming of... you're getting off topic again.. focus, sam! ... never mind... one moment slumber and sweetest dreams, next moment a very irritating vibrating noise and wanna be cute sound next to me... what?? what the feck is that?? what's going on? oh come on... ok, it's 5:30am, time to get up.. i really don't wanna go to work... a look outside the window shows a typical dublin morning... dark, cloudy, rainy... the perfect weather to weak up to to put it short... ok, maybe the shower will help...... - didn't - ..... getting dressed in something comfortable ("appropriate buisness attire" my ass.. did that the first day only to realize that i was the only one except the bosses and managers) and trying not to miss the bus... we know that it's supposed to leave it's starting point in the city center at about 6:20am.. and it take it between 4min and 15min to get to my stop (the punctuality thing again....), so.. better be leaving the house by 6:20am... actually managed to not to miss the bus.. took it 8min today... just made it.. getting on the bus facing yet another really charming bus driver with a mood much like mine... getting to the top floor to find a seat and.... :) there's the first really happy moment... on the frontest double seat somebody is smiling at me.. yay, anna (work friend) missed her bus and ended up on the later one... at least the bus ride's gonna be funnier than usual :)

chatting away, sharing the latest stories.. turns out the pub behind her place had another late close.. meaning not much sleep for her.. thank god the pub around the corner from my place is far enough away plus my room is facing the other direction... not much going on at the moment though... brendan (our irish flat mate) is visiting his girlfriends home with her (guess where that is?? zurich!!! :D) and sergio (spanish flat mate) is going mad on his guitar but other than that.. calm evening, watching the 2nd season of my new favourite series "the vampire diaries", just falling asleep somewhere around 11pm - time to get off the bus.. arrival at main street in the lovely village of swords *cough*... work is still a 10min walk away though.. but eventually there's a big building with these all to familiar yellow/black letters saying a work that looks like the most important organ spelled wrong... hello work, missed me?

coffee.. hellos all around.. more like unwilling mumbling at this time but gestures of greeting nonetheless.... booting systems, putting on the headset, log on to the phone program - 0 calls waiting - thank god no queue.. ok, now what? mails... anything important? 20 junk mails and some commercials... thank you.. f*ckin wast of space... *beep - a lady in my ear communicating what line the customer comes in" - line opens* ... "good morning *organ* reservations, my name is sam, how can i help you?"

astonishing low number of stupid, annoying questions until 11am when my system spontaneously decides to shut down.. the question to IT why it does that bring forth the answer "it's pulling updates"... wtf??? at 11am? only the busiest time of the day... but who cares about lost calls? .... not much going on during the day... just average amount of human stupidy but in low volume so idc... only thing really annoying is my "know it all" work mate sitting next to me... mister i know everything about everything... be it marine biology, art, history of whatever kind (be it standard or mystic), economics or medicin.. and everything you like is bullshit because he's so much more intellectual... "if you have the tiniest bit of knowledge, you can tell that this is fake" ... "this is so over the top, how can you like this" ... "do you want me to tell you some real facts on the topic? (vampires in this one.. addicted to it and not, not only since edward cullen :) .. like doing research at work when there's no calls) something you can't find on the internet?" ... "no, thank you"... "might save you a lot of time.." FUCK OFF!!! "thank you but know.. i prefer finding out stuff myself"...
at some point during the day a text message from my landlord: "can you show somebody around tonight? i set an appointment at 8:30pm, ok?" ... do i have a choice you dickhead???
but then finally.. after plenty of "i know it all best and all the other facts are shit because i've never heard of them" and plenty of customers with the iq of a dying rat it finally turns 3:45pm... i'm so outta here!! but wait... when does anna get off work? 4:15pm? ok, let's clean a bit and wait for her... better than fall asleep on the bus, bang my head on the bus window because of the adventurous way the driver hits the turns.... gossip again and finally home... yaay :D

coming home, paying sergio back the money he lended me because i was skin broke and informing him about the visitor later... "hey man, let's make the worst possible impression.. i don't want any other flate mates".... with you on that one, but what choice do we have???
so here we are.. doing the landlords job, who lives all the way in cardiff by the way.... good thing about that is he never comes by... came by once, took a shower, left again... good man yourself.. feck off :D

really with sergio on this one... i'm open to new experiences but my time in dublin has proven... this clearly IS an island... will all the hillbillies that come with it... a violent pack mostly... feels like with all the stereotypes and shite they're still in stone age... maybe the will evolve to intelligent human beings away from look, smelling and behaving like farm animals, but... i don't really know... i really got lucky on that front though... living with an educated, open, cool irishman who is very much capable to think beyond his yard and whos horizon as well goes further than that and getting shitfaced....

the one to be replaced would be a romanian long heard, fully bearded metal head... fucked in the head, mental bastard, completely mad but a good friend... does that person who is supposed to show up on our doorstep any moment have any idea how big of shoes he or she has to fill?? highly doubtful... but, one should always be open to new things.... right???

ok, y'all wish us luck... no clue what to expect.... will post a "judgement" later... ;)

my first time.. exciting :D

well, good news.. google actually managed to reset this blog after hours of "booting error"... thanks guys but why make them t+c's so complicated in the first place?? but.. what did we learn, especially in the last ten months (and with an IT-departement filled with people who probably still talk to their mouse because they think it's a mic and decide to completely oversea the general IT-rule "never change a running system") ? if your system works, be grateful and try not to change to anything... if you have to because certain things because they're just not the way they should be, pray for a miracle that nothing goes wrong... of course, my prayers remained unheard again this time.. but, after hours of waiting and hoping it might solve itself and wonderfully "specific" template emails, i'm finally alive on the first blog ever :)

so... i don't really know what will come of this yes.. as previously stated, this is my first post in my first blog ever.. so, please show mercy with my new experiment.. much appreciate it :) the way i see it now is that this will be a possibility for me to just write down some thoughts, whatever troubles or fascinates my mind during the day... to just get it out and see what developes... can be daily gossip, things i picked up just listening when the day once again is reeeally busy or general thoughts about encounters...

so.. i think we can all just wait and see in what ways this unknown territory will reveal itself to me...

last but by no means least... a very special thank you to one of my dearest friends from back home... thank you for always being there, for being my inspiration, for being the muse to my ears and my heart whenever i'm in the need... without you i would've never dared to take the leap... without you, i wouldn't have even found a proper name for this, so.. i really owe you... love you..